Friday, February 19, 2016

Arizona Christmas

I can't even begin to say how great it was to be in Arizona for Christmas with family.  After such a crazy year, it was like we were finally able to take a breath and just be a family again, and leave the cancer behind.  The kids LOVED playing with cousins.  
Here's Owen, Madi, and cousin Brett.
On Christmas Eve we had a great program at Grandma-ma and Grandpa's home.  Each family sang a song and Grandpa read a story.  Hyrum had been practicing a couple of Christmas songs for a while and was a bit nervous, but did an amazing job accompanying!

Baby Brett made the cutest little Santa on Christmas:)
 . . . and of course the customary Christmas PJ's picture:)
 Miracle Baby buddies: Tate and Baby Brett
 The Partridge's invaded a cute little soda shop. 
Brett and I were so glad to be able to do sealings in the Mesa Temple while we were down there to celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary.

Christmas Program 2015

Cedar Ridge has a cute Christmas program every year.  Each grade prepares some songs and they perfrom them for each other.  This is the first year they invited families to come and watch too.  It was SO cute!  Noah's class was dressing up like Whoville people.  He was ecstatic to be the Grinch:).  Hyrum's class were reindeers.  Can you spot him?  He was wearing his snow pants all day, funny kid. 



and of course, Baby had to try on the antlers too:)
 We've been getting a lot of snow and the kids have been loving it.  We've made lots of snowmen.
 Here's Hyrum's record breaking snowman, with Dad's help.  It was over 6 feet tall!


Friday, January 22, 2016

December

This cute boy rolled over a few times on accident at the beginning of December, but he looks more scared that he's rolled over then excited.  It's pretty funny when he does it.  
 Owen and Emmett love playing with their baby brother.  

 Celebrating Baby Brett at 4 months old!  Our hair is growing in together. 


Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Update

I had grand ideas of having a nice Christmas post up here with pictures before I sent out Christmas cards this year.  Well, I haven't really gotten to that yet. . . but there's still time right?  In the mean time here's a little update on what's been going on since Halloween:

Mastectomy on Nov. 18th.  I stayed in the hospital for a couple of days and Grandma and Grandpa Partridge flew in to help us out for a week. We've decided that vein finders are the coolest tool in the hospital.  My veins are pretty messed up because of chemo and nearly impossible to find, but after 45 minutes and only a few pokes they were able to find a good one with the vein finder.   
Yay! I can go home.  I had a lot of tubes I had to keep with me for a while, and they were really annoying to lug around everywhere, but I'm done with them now!

As soon as I got home I just wanted to see my baby.  I couldn't hold him, but Grandma laid him next to me so that I could feed him.  I miss snuggling my boys.

Grandma and Grandpa were great helpers and kept everything running while I was out of commission.  They stayed for my toughest week and went back home just before Thanksgiving.

Everyone has been so generous to us throughout the whole process.  Our awesome neighbors invited us over for Thanksgiving.

Hyrum is quite the creative little man.  He's been loving having his own room again, now that we rearranged bedrooms again.  He's always busy making or doing something, and he's been a great helper.  

Baby Brett is doing great.  He has rolled over four times (accidently), but we can't seem to get him to replicate it for video. He is happy and sweet and we all love him. 

Friday, December 4, 2015

Brett'sTalk: "The Importance and Power of Covenants"

Seven years ago Stephanie and I sat down at “the closing table” to finalize the purchase of our home. That day we entered into a very detailed agreement with a lender and others, some of the terms of the contract we had set, some were set by other parties. The contract bound all parties involved to act in a certain way and laid out penalties for failure to hold up our respective ends. We felt empowered that day as we closed on our house, there was a sense of accomplishment, ownership, and responsibility, even a little excitement at the thought making our first mortgage payment (though that excitement faded quickly). In a similar way, though with important differences, we can make arrangements with the Lord. We call them covenants.

     A covenant in the context of the restored gospel is different from worldly agreements or contracts where both parties negotiation and seal with handshakes and signatures. The parameters of covenants are set solely by the Lord. We are free to choose to accept the terms or leave them, but they aren’t placed on the alter for negotiation. Instead of signing papers like closing on a home loan, when we covenant with God, we show that agreement through sacred priesthood ordinances. As we receive these ordinances by covenant we are “endowed with power” even “the power of godliness" (D&C 43:16, D&C 84:20).

Exercise Faith in the Lord (7 min 9:45)
     Because the Lord sets the terms of our covenants, we must exercise our faith in Him as we receive them. It can be tough and sometimes makes no earthly sense what we’re asked to do or endure in this life. As I look out on this congregation, I know you! We have lost loved ones both to death and sin, we have fought through illnesses, infertility, financial struggles, wavering testimony, addictions, emotional and mental burdens. Perhaps at times weve ask questions that start with why only to find silence. It is very contrary to our natures to give up control and accept terms where we can’t see and spell out all the reasons and rationale. But friends, isn’t that exactly what we’re here on earth to do?

"And we will prove them herewith, to see if they will do all things whatsoever the Lord their God shall command them” (Abraham 3:25).

"For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a childsubmissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father” (Mosiah 3:19).

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8-9).

     God knows the end from the beginning, and though we might not understand all the reasons and rationale behind what He asks of us, He does. And whats more, He has promised to reveal it to us. He does not and never has asked us to walk with blind faith, having no witness of our own. To the prophet Nephi, the Lord revealed the vision of the tree of life and confirmed to the young man that the things his father Lehi, the prophet, was instructing and asking of them were from God. See, Nephi had made covenants to follow the prophet and when he reached the end of his own understanding and he faced that chasm whose bridge is faith, he didnt rant on Facebook about how Lehi needed to get with the times and he didn’t march on church headquarters tendering his resignation from his covenants. He went to the Lord directly and said, Im keeping my covenants, and there are some things here I dont understand, I know that that lack of understanding is on my end and not thine, and I will keep walking whether thou reveals more light and knowledge at this time or not, but if it be thy will I want to understand more fully that I might walk more faithfully.” His brothers struggled and he asked them Have ye inquired of the Lord?” to which they replied “We have not; for the Lord maketh no such things known unto us (1 Ne 15:8-9). They were so sure the Lord wouldnt teach them more, they never bothered to ask.

     My invitation to us all is to remember that we have made covenants and honoring covenants requires faith. When we feel that faith is weakening lets go to the Lord and ask Him to strengthen our faith and give us more understanding. And then we keep being obedient, for when we obey the Lord is bound. He will keep His promises and we will receive the strength that we need. I testify that we can have our own Nephi experiences, right now in 2015. We go to our Father in Heaven in faith and humility and receive revelations. I have done it and so have many of you.

Covenants Bring the Power of Godliness (3 min, 9:55)
     As we take upon us and keep our covenants, we are blessed with power. Just this hour, weve one by one participated in the sacred ordinance of the Sacrament. We promised to take His name upon us, to remember Him, and to keep His commandments. The Lord promised that our souls would become sanctified and that we would always have His spirit to be with us. In the temple we make other covenants with different requirements and promises, but the pattern is the same. Through these priesthood ordinances we are blessed with great blessings, the Doctrine and Covenants calls this the power of godliness.

     In the April 2009 general conference, Elder Christofferson of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles taught, "This 'power of godliness' comes in the person and by the influence of the Holy Ghost. The gift of the Holy Ghost is part of the new and everlasting covenant. It is an essential part of our baptism, the baptism of the Spirit. It is the messenger of grace by which the blood of Christ is applied to take away our sins and sanctify us (2 Ne 31:17)... The gifts of the Holy Spirit are testimony, faith, knowledge, wisdom, revelations, miracles, healing, and charity, to name but a few (D&C 46:13-26)” (The Power of Covenants, D. Todd Christofferson, April 2009 Conference).

     The Holy Ghost has a transformative power on our soul. He manifests to us the power of godliness, or in other words helps us become more like God. The process of becoming sanctified can require great changes within at times. We can see a symbol of how this change can occur within each of us through the transformation of the old Provo Tabernacle into a House of the Lord. In December 2010, the Provo tabernacle caught fire. This wonderful dedicated building which held conferences, sacred meetings, cultural events and musical firesides was destroyed. How could it be that something so precious and good wouldnt be protected by the Lord? Ten months after the fire, President Monson announced that it would be restored and rebuilt, this time not as a tabernacle, but as a temple. Its not that the tabernacle was bad or unholy, but the Lord could make it better. He saw what it could be and the lives of His children it could bless to have another temple. In His wisdom, a tragic destroying fire became an opportunity to sanctify. With all the responsibilities that Father in Heaven holds, if He can be aware of a building fire and do good with it, imagine what He can do with you and me - His own children! When we feel lifes fire heating up and were feeling consumed, as we continue in faith keeping our covenants we can see the power of godliness being manifest in two ways. One, our own growth and sanctification, just as the tabernacle is now being transformed into a beautiful temple. Two, we can be a tool for the sanctification of others, just as the new temple will bless countless souls living and deceased.

Elder Tuttle Story by President Packer (3 min, 9:55)

     The following story is the kind of transformation the Holy Ghost can make within us as we spend a lifetime making and keeping covenants.

In the [1986] October conference after Elder A. Theodore Tuttle spoke on faith, President Hinckley, who conducted that session, said:

“I should perhaps be guilty of an indiscretion, but I think I will risk it and say that Brother Tuttle has been seriously ill and he needs our faith, the faith of which he has spoken. It will be appreciated if those who have listened to him across the Church would plead with our Father in Heaven, in the kind of faith which he has described, in his behalf” (in Conference Report, Oct. 1986, p. 93).

And the prophet, President Benson, endorsed what President Hinckley had said and appealed himself for fasting and prayers of faith for the recovery of Brother Tuttle.

But Brother Tuttle did not recover. He died seven weeks later.

In the following conference (April 1987) President Packer related the following:

"Now, lest there be one whose faith was shaken, believing prayers were not answered, or lest there be one who is puzzled that the prophet himself could plead for the entire Church to fast and pray for Brother Tuttle to live and yet he died, I will tell you of an experience.

"One Sunday when Brother Tuttle was at home, confined mostly to his bed, I spent a few hours with him.

"He was deeply moved by the outpouring of love from across the world. Each letter extended prayers of faith for his recovery. Many of the messages came from South America, where the Tuttle family had labored for so many years.
"He insisted that he did not deserve more blessings, nor did he need them. Others needed them more. And then he told me this: 'I talked to the Lord about those prayers for my recovery. I asked if the blessings were mine to do with as I pleased. If that could be so, I told the Lord that I wanted him to take them back from me and give them to those who needed them more.'

"He said, 'I begged the Lord to take back those blessings and give them to others.'

"Brother Tuttle wanted those blessings from our prayers for those struggling souls whom most of us hardly remember, but whom he could not forget.

"The scriptures teach that 'the effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much' (James 5:16).

"Can you not believe that the Lord may have favored the pleadings of this saintly man above our own appeal for his recovery?

"We do not know all things, but is it wrong to suppose that our prayers were not in vain at all? Who among us would dare to say that humble folk here and there across the continent of South America will not receive unexpected blessings passed on to them from this man who was without guile?

"May not lofty purposes such as this be worked out in our lives if we are submissive?

"Now, I know that skeptics may ridicule such things. But I, for one, am content to believe that our prayers were accepted and recorded and redirected to those whose hands hang down in despair, just as Brother Tuttle had requested."

He Rescues the Covenant Makers (5 min, 10:00)
     Ultimately all covenants lead us to Jesus Christ. He is the One who rescues us, by making and keeping covenants we choose to accept that rescue effort. About 3 in the morning the day after the Savior miraculously fed the five-thousand, the disciples found themselves caught in a storm on the sea of Galilee. As their tiny vessel was mercilessly “tossed with waves: for the wind was contrary”, the disciples saw what they thought was a spirit coming towards them, “and they cried out for fear” (Matthew 14:24, 26). Surely these expert sailors knew the dangers of sudden storms on Galilee’s waters, yet they were fiercely obedient to the Master, remember it was Jesus who “constrained his disciples to get into a ship, and to go before him unto the other side [of the sea of Galilee]” (Matthew 14: 22).

  • Why would the Lord let this happen, why to His own disciples?
  • Didn’t the Savior know the danger of such a treacherous voyage in the middle of the night?
  • Where was He now when they needed Him most?

     These may feel like very familiar questions we have asked at some point in our own life. No one, neither obedient nor disobedient are immune from the storms of life. But when we obediently answer the Master’s call with “I’ll go where you want me to go… say what you want me to say… be what you want me to be" even - and especially - when such obedience or covenant keeping is contrary to the world or leads us “to paths that [we] do not know” (Hymn 270, I’ll Go Where You Want Me To Go), “[He] will not leave [us] comfortless: [He] will come to [us]” (John 14: 18). And so it was here on the sea of Galilee, walking towards the fearful disciples, "Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.” (Matthew 14:27). We can find the Savior in so many places. He is in the joys of our life and He is in the trials. It's not so much a matter of where we find Him so much as it is THAT we find Him. When we are facing that wonderful peace in life and seemingly witnessing our own feeding of five-thousand, we should remember "it is I" and we can be of good cheer and not fear. When we are facing the darkest trials we should likewise remember, "it is I”, be of good cheer and not fear. Remember our covenants, and have faith that God is faithful and always keeps His end. So what about when we feel utterly alone and it seems as though He has not come to us when we we need Him most, what was Christ doing when the disciples were first caught in the storm? The scripture reads, “He went up into a mountain apart to pray” (Matthew 14:23). Brothers and Sisters, let us wait patiently on the Lord just a little longer, for if we don’t see Him walking on our stormy sea toward our vessel, it may just be that He taking sacred time to pray for us.

Master the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadowed with blackness.
No shelter or help is nigh.

Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today.
The depths of my sad heart are troubled.
Oh, waken and save, I pray!

The winds and the waves shall obey they will:
Peace, be still.
Whether the wrath of the storm-tossed sea
Or demons or men or whatever it be,
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean and earth and skies.

     Indeed there is nothing that “can swallow the ship where lies the Master of ocean and earth and skies”. We must become that ship where-in lay the Master. I testify that making and keeping our covenants transforms us into that vessel, that temple the Lord needs us to be and nothing can capsize or destroy us. Covenants bring power to overcome life’s trials and access the Atonement of Jesus Christ more fully.

Master, the terror is over.
The elements sweetly rest.
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast.
Linger, O blessed Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more,
And with Joy I shall make the blest harbor
And rest on the blissful shore.

     In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Stephanies Stake Conference Talk

 This year has been a learning experience for my family. On our path to come unto Christ and receive and embrace His perfect Atonement, there are two principles that stand out to me the most.  FIRST - Trust the Lord, and His infinite wisdom and SECOND Accept the Lord’s will with patience and gratitude.
    Last Christmas seemed extra special because we felt like, for a brief moment, that we had everything together.  After four c-sections and an especially difficult last delivery we felt that we were done having kids, Brett was loving his job, we were surprising the kids with a long-asked for puppy Christmas morning, and we were discussing vacations and family trips in our future.  OUR plans were just working out perfectly. We didn’t know that Heavenly Father had a different plan for our future.  Early this year we were surprised to find that we were expecting another baby.  It came as a bit of a shock, but we were happy to welcome another member to our family and started to change our plans to accommodate a newborn this year. Shortly after finding out I was pregnant I noticed a small lump under my skin and mentioned it to my doctor during a routine appointment.  He suggested I have it looked at, just as a precaution.  Within a two week period of that visit I had an ultrasound, biopsy, mammogram, was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma, and had my first surgery to attempt to remove the cancer.  It was a whirlwind of emotions, fears, and a lot of prayer.   It was determined that I would need to begin chemotherapy when I was about 20 weeks pregnant.  There were a lot of tears, I was afraid for the baby and I was sad that my 4 young boys would have to sacrifice their summer, and be introduced to such a hard and painful experience in their life.  I wanted the cancer to go away.  I just wanted to hold my boys and plan adventures all summer long with them, and celebrate Brett and my 10th wedding anniversary like we had planned. By the council and encouragement of my husband I followed the admonition of the Savior, recorded in Matthew: “Come unto me, all ye that are heavy ladden, and I will give you rest.”  I needed a daily boost through prayer to make it through at times.  I knew that Heavenly Father had a plan for me, but I struggled to know how THIS fit into His plan, because it was definitely NOT in mine.
   Early in treatment I had a very vivid dream.  I was young and in school.  The school I attended in my dream was very prestigious and I just knew it was an honor to be there. I was sitting in class when the principal called me into his office.  I looked around the office and noticed the beautiful woodwork and a large desk in the center of the room.  Behind the desk were the kind eyes of the school’s principal.  I knew he cared about each of the students in the school and wanted all of us to succeed.  He told me that in order for me to excel in this school I would need to accept a very difficult challenge.  I was told that my opportunity for growth came in the form of being attacked by a bully every other day for the rest of the school year.  I would get knocked down, pushed, and beaten but the next day I could heal and enjoy my day. . . then the bully would come again.  I couldn’t believe that this was required for me to succeed and become the student that he knew I could be.  Why would I have to experience pain?  Couldn’t there have been an easier way?  But I trusted him and his experience, so I agreed to the challenge.  As I stood up, about to leave the office, he stopped me and added that there was one more thing he needed from me.  I would be given 5 new students that would be under my stewardship.  I would need to show them around the school, teach them how things worked, and prepare them for their school career.  They would watch me and need to know that my challenges wouldn’t keep me down, because they needed my strength.  In my dream, I then appeared on the playground ready to face the bully for the first time and looked up to see the eyes of my five new students watching me and I knew everything was going to be fine.  The bully would beat me down, but I would always be able to get back up and it wouldn’t last forever.  I knew that this painful challenge would help me recognize my own strength and expand my understanding of the Atonement.  When I woke up I felt so much joy and contentment.  I knew that this dream was a gift from heaven, to teach me that Heavenly Father’s plan for my family was better then my plan.   I knew that Heavenly Father would strengthen me for my soon to be five boys.  Brett Jr. joined our family in August, after enduring 6 rounds of chemotherapy with me,  in my easiest c-section that I’ve ever had.  He is now 3 months old and perfectly healthy and thriving.  
  Sometimes I think back to that dream I had months ago, sitting in front of the principal.  I wonder if there was a similar scene before we came to earth? Trials and hardships in life may not be part of OUR plan, but our limited comprehension of eternity is a great reminder to put our trust in someone who does have Infinite wisdom and understanding and wants the absolute best for us.  We can:  “Trust in the Lord with all (our)  hearts; and lean not unto (our) own understanding.  In all (our) ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct (our) paths.”  as stated in Proverbs (Proverbs 3:5-6).  Elder Dallin H. Oaks said, “Adversity is an occasional or even a constant companion for each of us throughout our lives. We cannot avoid it.  It is a reality - and indeed one of the purposes of mortal life.  What is important is how we react to it.  Will our adversities  bear us down, or will we go forward relying on the promise of God, who does not shield us from every adversity but who gives us the guidance and strength that make it possible for us to endure and progress?”
  In the first verse of the book of Job we learn what kind of man he was, “ There was a man in the land of Uz, whose name was Job; and that man was perfect and upright, and one that feared God, and eschewed evil.”  He was given every blessing and privilege in life.  Satan challenged his obedience and perfection, saying that if all that was good in his life was taken away he would curse God.  Jesus allowed Satan to have power over all that Job had.  He destroyed his flocks and herds, he slayed his servants and children, cursed him with boils, and abandonment and every affliction you can imagine. He suffered greatly, and wondered why he was afflicted with such loss and sorrow, but never once cursed the Lord.  He persevered, and despite all that he suffered he still testified, “Blessed be the name of the Lord” (Job 1:21). “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him. … He also shall be my salvation. … For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth … yet in my flesh shall I see God” (Job 13:15–16; Job 19:25–26).  Job trusted the Lord and His infinite wisdom AND he accepted the Lord’s will with patience and gratitude.  He was declared perfect, not because he had a perfect life, but because he never doubted God’s wisdom.
    In the New Testament James wrote these words of encouragement to the other apostles, “My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”  To be patient doesn’t mean we are giving up or that we stop learning and asking questions, but patience is the opportunity to humble ourselves and open our hearts and minds for receiving the Lord’s guidance  and understanding rather than our limited perspective. President Uchtdorf wisely taught, “Without patience, we cannot please God; we cannot become perfect.  Indeed, patience is a purifying process that refines understanding, deepens happiness, focuses action, and offers hope for peace.” (G.C. April 2010)
  Just like the principal in my dream who invited me to his office,  our Savior also invites us to Come unto Him.  When we come unto Christ and trust Him he will show us His plan for us.  Our trials may not be lifted and OUR plans might be shifted,  but through His Atonement, His Grace, and His eternal love for us we are given the command and promise to be perfected in Him.  When we embrace the Savior we can gain for ourselves His perfect love, perfect peace, perfect hope, and perfect forgiveness.  And if we find what we are not getting exactly what we hope for, we can still find joy and be grateful.  Knowledge, understanding, testimony, and faith all come at the price of patience.   

 I know, now more than ever, that Jesus Christ is our Savior and Redeemer.  He suffered all things and can truly empathise with our pain and sorrow.   We at times need to recognize our weaknesses and acknowledge that we are broken in order to get fixed, and our Savior stands with open arms ready to embrace us.  I have felt His love and peace and know that there is plenty enough of his perfect Atonement for everyone.  

Halloween!

BOOO!!!  
Hyrum 'vas a scary Dracula!
Noah was a blue Morph. . . I really don't know what that is though, but he liked it.
So, for about a month Owen had been BEGGING us to get him a Groot costume for Halloween.  We finally found one and got it for him.  He wore it once and then didn't want to wear it anymore.  He ended up wearing his Hulk costume from last year, funny kid.
Baby Brett was Hiro from Big Hero 6.  I made him the hat three weeks before Halloween and it fit perfectly, going all the way over his ears.  By the time Halloween came it was too small!  He was still cute though:).
Dad is Baymax with Hero
 I didn't have any picture of my costume.  I was Snow White. . . or at least my interpretation of what she would look like if she didn't have hair.  Owen was taking pictures and captured this little moment, and I'm so glad he did. 
 Oh, Bubba.  Just too cute for words.
For dinner: hot dog mummies, blood stew (tomato soup), brain jello, and goblin slush.